Saturday, January 30, 2010

setbacks are just setups for comebacks.

When the Lord makes a promise, He keeps it. Period.

"I am confident of this: I will see the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." Psalm 27:13-14


I guess it's like when you're watching a movie and just know what's going to happen. But for that whole two hours it's almost unbearable just waiting... But it's only two hours... I'm having to wait, patiently and expectantly for much longer then just two hours...

"The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." 2Peter 3:9



Longsuffering: Patient endurance of pain or unhappiness.

Perseverence: Steady persistence in adhering to a course of action, a belief, or purpose.

Patience: 1. The capacity for calmly enduring difficult situations. 2. The ability to wait calmly.


"Delight Yourself In The Lord And He Will Give You The Desires Of Your Heart" Psalm 37:4

There are things I'm 100% sure will happen, no matter what. & other things that I'm not so sure on, I feel like I know what will happen, but at the same time there is always surprise endings...

Friday, January 29, 2010

oh my boy....

Someday you'll realize you were never really breathing,
You'll see how dead you've been.
He'll take the weight off your shoulders....
& you'll take you'll first real breath.
He will give you new life,
& you will finally see how lost you were.
You'll feel a love greater than any other,
& I will cry tears of joy.
When you get it, & stop trying to fight your own battles,
& stop fighting the truth.
i promise.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

just a thought.

... then the way you touch me... as far they see it, it should be past. But, you and I both know the truth. It's a truth that's held in the present. Only for us to feel, for us to know. It's a truth that doesn't make sense right now... because it can't. The truth that holds it all, our past, present, and future... & I've put it up to God cuz when it's up to us we mess everything up...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

for everything turn turn turn....

Well 2009 ended. I've lived thru two full decades. & I was thinking about doing a 'review of 2009' post. But.. I can't. I won't. Okay I will... kind of.

Beginning of the Year-
I lived in a state of numbness. I didn't allow myself to feel anything, because everything hurt.

Elvis Presley: "Are You Lonesome Tonight?"
Are you lonesome tonight,
Do you miss me tonight?
Are you sorry we drifted apart?
Does your memory stray to a brighter sunny day
When I kissed you and called you sweetheart?
Do the chairs in your parlor seem empty and bare?
Do you gaze at your doorstep and picture me there?
Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again?
Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?

I wonder if you're lonesome tonight
You know someone said that the worlds a stage
And each must play a part.
Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart.
Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance
You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue
Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange
And why I'll never know.
Honey, you lied when you said you loved me
And I had no cause to doubt you.
But I'd rather go on hearing your lies
Than go on living without you.
Now the stage is bare and Im standing there
With emptiness all around
And if you wont come back to me
Then make them bring the curtain down.

Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again?
Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?




Spring-
I began to rely soley on my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He's all I had.
Josh Wilson- "Savior Please"
Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last


I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all I have

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me



Summer-
I realized I was own my worst enemy. I was the one holding myself back. While I spent the Summer out of my security blanket I realized that, and I just focused all my energy on the Lord. His plans for me began to be revealed.

Red-"Death of Me"
I should have seen those signs all around me
But I was comfortable inside these wounds
So go ahead and take another piece of me, now
While we all bow down to you

You tear me down
And then you pick me up
You take it all
And still it’s not enough
You try to tell me
You can heal me
But I’m still bleeding
And you’ll be the death of me

How can you end my affliction
If you’re the sickness and I’m the cure?
Too long I’ve faked this addiction
Another sacrifice to make us pure

You tear me down
And then you pick me up
You take it all
And still it’s not enough
You try to tell me
You can heal me
But I’m still bleeding
And you’ll be the death of me (x2)

I won’t forget
I cannot forget this
I won’t forget
I'll never forget this (x4)

You know I can never prove this solution
You aren’t the one that I thought you were
And so I learn to embrace this illusion
The line that separates
It starts to blur



Fall-
The best way to describe how I felt for the most is... HERE. I was happy to be home and growing up...

Chris Tomlin- "Sing, Sing, Sing"
We will sing, sing, sing
And make music with the heavens
We will sing, sing, sing
Grateful that You hear us
When we shout your praise
Lift high the name of Jesus

What's not to love about You?
Heaven and earth adore You
Kings and kingdoms bow down
Son of God, You are the One
You are the One we're living for

You are the love that frees us
You are the light that leads us
Like a fire burning
Son of God, You are the one
You are the one we're living for


Winter-
Everything was falling into place. I was in school, I was making some sort of money, I had my best friends close to me and we were all close to God.

urgh... I can't think of a perfect song. sorry.

All in All. I'm Sooo glad 2009 is over! But, I'm so glad I lived thru everything that I did.


Delight Yourself In The Lord And He Will Give You The Desires Of Your Heart - Psalm 37:4