Saturday, July 31, 2010


This is quite funny to me.

Behold... My Future

I will marry Nic.

After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Utah in our fabulous Mansion.

We will have 1 kid(s) together.

Our family will zoom around in a Pink Jeep Cherokee.

I will spend my days as a Massage Therapist, and live happily ever after.

whats your future

Haha that almost sounds right but not quite....

Thursday, July 29, 2010


There's a few pop-culture icons who were formative members of my childhood. I'm sure they'll all come up at some point but today on my mind is Garth Brooks.

He is such an incredible performer! I've never seen him live, only videos, because everytime my parents went to one of his concerts I was 'too young'. I remember staying at home and crying because I couldn't go. I have a very special place in my heart because of this man, and my sister got her name, Raegyn Brooke, because I loved Garth Brooks SOO much! It's so funny to me now... but seriously I hear him sing and I just... mmm it's like ice cream to my ears.

Watch this video. I love he gets so passionate and into this wonderful love song.

Isn't that yummy? I would love to see him live someday before I die... Idk if it'll be possible but I'm gonna try.

Dear Garth,
Thank you for all your wonderful music that helped in raising me. You're a total stud and I will make sure my children love you too. We should be friends, and you can serenade me daily. :)
<3 Jordyn

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Hold on, gotta wait for the light.

It seems to be one of those times where things just aren't working out. Like there's someone who has it out for you, and no matter how hard you try to get on your feet you get knocked right back down.

I'm getting married in less than two weeks and I really am beyond excited! My parents have been absolutely wonderful through it all, helping me and Nic get the pretty little wedding we want. I know that no matter what happens it's going to be perfect, because I'm marrying Nic. I get to spend the rest of my life with my best friend right next to me, and we'll be a family :)

But other than that we just keep getting bad news, or more correctly more stress added on top of more stress. With hardly any of it getting resolved before more comes along. I get so overwhelmed sometimes, but lucky for me Nic is very much an optimist. He helps me get through all the terribly stressful times... It really feels like we can barely keeps our heads above water and at any moment we are going to drown.

But that's not going to happen... nope not to us. We're not going to drown, we're going to make it through this hard time and come out stronger. It's what we do, and I know that going through all this hard stuff right now is really going to help our future. God has many many blessings in store for us, we're just on the brink of it all. Sure at times I breakdown, and at times i have doubts but I know that with God on our side we're going to make it through everything.

& PS. anyone who seems to think they know me, Nic or the things we have gone through is sorely mistaken... At best you know one side of the story, but most likely not even that. Let's all show a little respect mmkay?

ANYWAY... Here is our (or at least my) theme song for the time. "Before the Morning" -Josh Wilson

Friday, July 16, 2010

A very special little lady.

You never know how you'll react to a situation until it's a reality. I reacted with a solid, "Okay". I didn't know what else to say, but I knew everything was fine. I was just glad that from THE very beginning Nic has been completely honest with me.
She's a part of him.
She's Olivia.

She's Nicholas' daughter, and she was adopted by an absolutely loving and wonderful family.

I know that without her he wouldn't be the Nicholas that I know and love. Because of everything that happened he had to grow up and make tough choices.

I was lucky enough to meet this little angel in June. She is such a happy baby, and a spitting image of Nic. Seeing him with her made me so happy, you can just tell when she's in his arms nothing else matters to him. I can see the way he loves her everyday, and I know that he is going to be the greatest father to our children.

I Love You Olivia.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

funny and sad..

It's funny, ya know, how people change... That someone can go from being one of your best friends- you'd do anything for them & vice versa, from being someone that you can trust to always be there, and to be on the same track and mind set, to... a stranger.
This has happened to me with a few friends lately... which makes me think I might be changing? Well obviously my life is changing... but I'd like to think I'm still the pretty decent friend I've always been. And frankly I deserve better than how these "friends" have decided to treat me.
But I don't care... I mean I still love these people but for now I have no problem just walking away. There are different reasons why, like I don't need selfish people in my life, I don't need fake people in life... I guess it just comes down to growing up and getting away from everyone who's stuck in high school still. It's hard but I'm fine....

In other news... yesterday was the 11th anniversary of Grandma's death. I try to not be sad about it anymore.... I guess it's because I feel like that's silly of me I was 9 when she died- I should be over it by now....
I don't think I will ever be over it.
My relationship with her was different than any other relationship I've been in. I was her first granddaughter and so trust me-I was her favorite. Not only was the first but I was the only girl for about 4 years, then 3 more came. All the boys had each other to wrestle with, and the little girls were all the 'ninnies'. I was given the title of 'queen-ninny' solely because I was girl... but on a day to day basis I had little to do with the ninnies... I was 7 they were 3. So when I was lonely and didn't really have anyone else to play with- I had Grandma. She was always there for me, without fail. She helped teach me how to spell, and she would tell me all the wonderful, beautiful things I could grow up to be. All I ever felt from her was love.
Every time I think of her-I miss her.... I miss her when we go to family gatherings and the 'ninnies' all have each other, they are inseparable & I'm just not a part of that. One on one with each of them I have a great time, but when the three get together I might as well not exist. It's getting easier now that I have Nicholas but it's still hard.
I had a little bit of a breakdown yesterday, when I was thinking about the wedding. We've invited tons of people and I'm going to be very happy to see them, but when it comes down to it the person I would most like to show up... just can't... It's frustrating and heartbreaking. Yesterday I sat there with my head in my hands crying and saying, "it's just not fair"

I guess this is all part of growing up... it can't always be fun and beautiful.

I love you Grandma...

Monday, July 5, 2010

a little background and recent happenings.

This summer that I've been spending with Nicholas has been a little hectic. It seems like we're either spending the day at home stressed just thinking of all the things we need to get done or we're out running errands all day, (in the Jeep & the AC doesn't work). But through it all the stress and the tears, day by day we're falling more and more in love. So I figured I would take this chance to tell a little about how we met and where we've been lately.
2/19 was one of a few Fridays that I actually had school. I went to about half and then decided that I would rather go to the College group for our church. I walked in late & noticed this boy I had never seen before sitting on the couch. After the message was over I was talking to some of my friends and noticed him checking me out. Everyone ended up going to Denny's after wards and we sat at the same table see this blog. We just hit off and started hanging out every chance we had, and on 2/26 we were boyfriend/girlfriend.
We went to the Color Festival, and shooting with my family.
(Some of these pictures probably seem familiar... just trying to fill in the blanks)

I don't know how to explain it other than everything with Nic was different. He was different than other boys I had dated, he was more caring. & our relationship was different because of the things we had each gone through especially the year before we were both more mature than we had been in our past relationships. I know 110% that we were made for each other. Everything about either one of us that some one would find a 'fault' is endearing. He's seen at my absolute craziest, ugliest, & all around worst... He knows any 'deep-dark secrets that I might have, and from the very beginning he was totally honest with me.
By the end of March we knew we were going to get married and on April 28th we were officially engaged. :) May 1st we went and visited some of my family in Page, Az.
That's Nic dancing with my aunt Kim at my cousin's bar... good times. :)

May 27th was my puppy, Blue (Princess Veruca Rio Bluetiful) Birthday. She turned 3! We went up the canyon to celebrate.

June was pretty much spent being stressed and excited for the wedding. Trying to get everything together. We did go to another friends wedding.

We danced so much I had such a good time, & it just one more time that I realized how lucky I am to have him.
Really June is all such a blur to me now... But on 6/18 we got our engagements taken :) I'll post some of those later.

On the 4th of July our church had park days with games and such. We won the three-legged race :) It was awesome, people were like "you guys were moving like one person." "you guys must be meant to be" it really made me laugh.

Haha not a great picture of either of us... but you get the point.

But here we are now... everything is falling is place. All we need to figure out is food, flower girl dresses, and where we are going to live when we get married... So far 2010 has been very crazy, but wonderful and I have a feeling it's just going to keep going.