Saturday, May 28, 2011

4:seven things

day four: seven things that cross your mind a lot.

one; why am I hungry? Didn't I just eat?
two; I sure wish Nic was home.. how much longer?
three; I need to do laundry.
four; Nutella is a healthy way to get my chocolate fix right?
five; I need more friends.
six; Why won't Asher take a bottle? how can I get him to?
seven; I need to move/take a vacation.

Friday, May 27, 2011

3:eight ways

day three: eight ways to win your heart.
 (since he already has won my heart, I'm doing 'eight ways Nicholas won my heart')

one;  Have faith and a relationship with Jesus Christ. Strive to be stronger spiritually, pray with me. This is the most important area to be on the same page if you want things to work.

two; He makes me laugh, but also thinks I'm funny. We just get each others sense of humor. I could never live a dull humorless life.

three; Must love dogs. Nic loves Blue just as much as I do-very important.

four; He makes me feel like I am the most beautifully unique woman, not like I'm some crazy weirdo. He helps me see my flaws as the things that make me special.

five; Traveling is something I've always been passionate about. Nic has been to all the continental United States and together we are going to travel world. 

six; I always knew the man I would marry would be good with kids, (because I never thought I was). & every time I see Nic with kids I'm just amazed at how naturally he interacts with them.

seven; He sings & dances with me. In the car, our room, the kitchen... that guy always has a tune in his head.

eight; Spoil me-with kisses, presents, ice cream, your precious spare time, give me all that you can, and I'll do the same in return.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

2:nine facts

day two: nine interesting facts about yourself.

one; I have this kinda quirky ability to read vanity plates. Nic almost always has to ask me what it says if we see one. I get frustrated when I can't figure it out & I'll think about for days.

two; I've only been to six states. Utah, Idaho, Arizona, Nevada, Wyoming and Washington. I've been to four corners which technically adds New Mexico and Colorado. I spent two hours at LAX and a couple hours in a small town in Mexico just across the border. (I have a serious need to travel!)

three; I have this secret desire to dance. Nic took ballroom in high school and we decided that once we have time we will take a couples ballroom class. But in the meantime when I am in a good mood I cant stop myself. I'll just walk into the room and start shakin it, (which was lots of fun with my big belly.)

four; I swear I saw Nic (and totally checked him out) almost a year and a half before we met. At that time he was working at a fast food place that was having their grand opening. I went in with some friends and I remember talking about the boy behind the counter who was super attractive and tall. I was too scared to make a move and so well never know if it was actually Nic or someone else. But i can't even imagine how differently things would have been had we met that day...

five; Working graveyards at a pretty slow hotel helped me develop an awkward interest in facebook/blog stalking. Seriously, if you don't want me to know something don't put it online. haha I'm in no way out to hurt or expose anyone, just awkwardly interested in others lives like its some sort of reality show haha.

six; My parents said it's pretty interesting that I never wanted to be pregnant or have kids, and I always denied that I had any sort of maternal instinct. But now that Asher is here its like I found my calling in this life. Everything has come so naturally, I'm pretty much the best mom that kid has ever seen.

seven; My first car was a Jeep Cherokee. I had it for a little over a year before rolling it a couple blocks from my house. I looked down to adjust my seat belt and when I looked back up I was heading for some bushes. I hit a mailbox that made a ramp onto the bushes and then I was hanging upside down. One of the scariest and most exciting moments of life, I look at the pictures and I still can't believe I was there.

eight; In junior high I had the awesome opportunity to be an extra in two Disney channel movies. Halloweentown High (you don't ever really see me), and Life is Ruff (I'm in a bunch of shots with my short hair and orange tie-dye shirt). I had so much fun, but it was so monotonous at times, I could never really be an actor.

nine; I used to wish I needed glasses. I even bought a few fake pairs from claires, & I would wear them all the time. I loved the way look on me, I still do! But I feel extremely blessed for having such great eyesight. I'm the only one in my family that doesn't need some sort of correction, (besides my brother who just got lasik.) My dad didn't need glasses until he was 35 so I may have to finally get real glasses at that point. If I do I'll be sure to make it a good day, not a rough day like it could so easily be.

this was a lot harder than it should have been!

Monday, May 23, 2011

1:ten people

day one: ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Husband: Thank you for all that you do for our little family. I know it's not always easy to be the provider of a family of three, but you do a wonderful job. We have our little arguments but I wouldn't change a thing. You make me smile, and you bring out the more mature side of me. Every day our life gets a little better, and only 11 more weeks till graduation! :) I love you.

Asher Boy: I love you, I love you, I love you. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray, I hope you know dear how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away. I'm so glad that of all the little babies in the cabbage patch, I was lucky enough to get you. Cuddling up with you while you sleep is definitely a highlight of every day.

Brycee: You have so much potential to make your life into one of the most incredible ones this world has ever seen. & I hate seeing you hold yourself back, you hesitate to set these things in motion but, I have all the confidence in the world that you are going to do big things. You are my El Paco Paco, we have had so many wonderful adventures the past 5 1/2 years. I love you.

Raegyn: I can't even begin to tell you how proud I am of you, and how much I look up to. Seriously. You are the kind of teenage girl I wish I had been, and that I hope my daughters will be. You're responsible, wise, and incredibly mature. You've managed to graduate high school while attending hair school. You're so beautiful and beaming with faith, & you never seek the acceptance of others to make yourself more confident. You're not just my little sister-you really are my best friend. I love you.

Mom & Dad: I know we had some times when I was growing up, I was your most difficult child. & I'm so sorry for all that I put you through. But I want you to know I think you guys went above and beyond the call of duty. Please never doubt the fact that you were (and are) wonderful parents. You've done so much for me, Nic and Ash this past year, I can never thank you enough. I love you.

 Cassie: No matter how it may seem now, you were one of my absolute best friends. Not just because we were going through similar situations, but because we always had fun, and we just had this connection. Gosh... I miss that. You never seemed too interested in being a bridesmaid in my wedding, and now I'm not one of yours. I honestly can't really believe it, I'm just shocked and a little hurt when  I think of how close we were. We're so so distant now. ugh! I wish I knew how to fix things, but I feel like it's not possible anymore, maybe we're just too different than we once were. But no matter what please know that I will always love you.

K-la: In two days you're leaving and I won't see you again for another 18 months. I'm gonna miss you so much! But I'm so proud of you for doing this. Seriously the people of Florida don't know how lucky they are to have such a beautiful Chirstlike woman coming to minister to them. I can see the love you have for our Savior and I know you are going to share that with others. I love you.

Nona: I always knew we would grow up together. I'm so happy that even with the different paths our lives have taken we are still so close. You're one of the few people I still consider a true friend. You bring so much light and encouragement into my life. We don't see each other nearly enough... know what I mean?? I love you.

Kieran: Please stop growing up! I can't believe you are 7 and so big! You're the baby of your family, don't you wanna stay that way forever?! You made me so happy those six weeks I lived with you, I'll never forget any of it, or all the crazy creative things you say. Seriously never lose that spunk. I love you.

Blue: You're my little black baby, so smart & loving. I know you've had a kinda rough time since Asher was born but we still love you just as much! No puppy will ever take the place of all that you mean to me. I just need you to find the fountain of youth and never leave me. K?

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Baby Survey

I'm gonna be doing this challenge starting tomorrow (hopefully). It's short so that's nice. I just wanna change of pace for my blog for a bit while I work on some other posts...

day one: ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
day two: nine interesting facts about yourself.
day three: eight ways to win your heart.
day four: seven things that cross your mind a lot.
day five: six things you wish you’d never done.
day six: five people you couldn’t live without.
day seven: four moments that changed your life.
day eight: three favorite foods, movies, and colors.
day nine: two words that describe your life right now.
day ten: one confession.

But here's a little something for today.

Baby Survey

About mommy:

Age: 21 Height: 5'9"
Occupation: Stay at home mom (currently).
First child? Yes

About daddy:

Age: 24 Height: 6'2"
Occupation: Studying to be an LMT
First child? Nope.

She may have been adopted but she's still Asher's half sister.

How did you find out you were expecting?
-I was late for my period, and paranoid. We really didn't think I would be pregnant so Nic went to the Dollar Store to buy a test to put our minds at ease. I took the test the next morning, when I saw the two lines indicating I was indeed pregnant. I felt like throwing up, I was shocked, scared, and a little bit excited. I went to my room where Nic was waiting handed him the test and said, "Well happy father's day..."

1st trimester-how did you feel?
-Sick if I hadn't eaten, & in a constant state of total disbelief.

What was your biggest food craving?
-Definitely caffeine-free Dr.Pepper.

2nd trimester-how did you feel?
-Sick at first, but as it went on I felt wonderful. I loved feeling my baby move around, I felt beautiful-it was very much a 'honeymoon phase'.

At how many weeks did you find out the baby’s sex?
-19 weeks

Did you get any stretch marks?
-Not until I was 35 weeks. But I only got a handful of really small ones.

3rd trimester- how did you feel?
-Anxious, & whenever I felt like I couldn't get any bigger I would.

A picture of your pregnant belly.

Who was in the room when baby was born?
Nic, my mom, my sister Raegyn, cousin Lorene, and Bryce

Baby’s first picture with momma.

Baby's first picture with daddy.

Baby’s first family picture.

Your favorite physical trait about you baby.
-His beautiful blue eyes, itty-bitty button nose, and cutie pie smile

What kind of personality does your baby have?
He's just a happy baby. When we were deciding what to name him, we just felt like his name was supposed to be Asher, which means happy or cheerful. & this little guy definitely lives up to his name. The only time he gets upset is when he's hungry or tired, and lately when he just wants more attention. He's only 3 months old, so we're just starting to get to know his personality, but I feel like I can just see all the intelligence he has.

Does he look more like momma or daddy?
Most people say daddy, but a few people say me. He looks a lot like mommy as a baby but daddy now... haha if that makes sense..

Is being a momma what you hoped it would be?
I honestly didn't have very fun expectations. I just thought I would be exhausted all the time, and just waiting for him to get bigger and more independent. Being his momma is much more enjoyable, and rewarding then I ever could have imagined. We have our hard times when he's hungry, tired, and so worked up he doesn't want to eat. But then there's the times where he will be laying there while I give him kisses on soft tummy, and he just laughs his cute little belly laughs.

just a random cute pic of 4 of my favorite people, and Blue

Friday, May 13, 2011


I can't believe it but my favorite little peanut is 18 months old! && he is just so neat!

when Asher came home from the hospital
I swear everytime I see him I am more amazed with how crazy, and amazing he is. One day I asked him if he wanted a chip or a cupcake, but instead of waiting I just handed him the chip. He threw it on the ground, scowled at me, and said "Wan cup-cay"  Our next door neighbor's dog loves to bark, so Owen will go out to the backyard and "woof woof" back. We're puppy-sitting this little chihuahua and when he first saw it he said "neow?" (cat?) waited a second and said "Oh woof woof!"
I wish I could remember more of his hilarious cuz seriously this kid makes me laugh so much!

I am so glad the Owie, and Ash are so close in age. I know they are gonna be such good buddies! Ah so fun, can't wait!

This is one of his favorite songs. We play it for him all the time and he try to sings along, he's really good at the Oh-e Oh-e part. Which is cute cuz that's one of his nicknames as well.

Love love love my little nutty-noo.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

There's a first for everything

Earlier this week I was so blessed with the celebration of my first mother's day. 

This was actually the week before.

I woke up on Sunday excited, my baby was happy, and I was gonna get to see some of my oldest and dearest friends. We got to church I got a chocolate, a hug, and a "Happy mother's day!" That moment I felt a tinge in my heart, and some moisture in my eyes...
I don't know what brought it on but I started feeling guilty.
I thought about the people I know who struggle with getting and staying pregnant. The ones in happy healthy marriages with stable homes, just yearning for a little one to call their own.
I thought about the birthmothers I know. They were able to have a baby only to break their own heart to give their baby something more than what they could.
I thought about those who have lost their mothers. They get to see everyone else loving their mommas, and remember how much they their own.
Why did I get to have this wonderful baby boy? We weren't trying or planning on becoming pregnant so soon... Why was I blessed this early in my life? & have the most wonderful and supportive mom, she's my best friend and we just continue to grow closer and closer.

I just hugged my precious boy and held back tears. But then I realized I was being close-minded, ignorant even. Many of the people I was thinking about were able find joy and peace amidst the fact they may have been hurting. I had no reason to feel guilty. I was in no way the only one who was blessed.

My aunt was able to celebrate her first mother's day with "earthly, legal children to call me mom" In the last year her and my uncle adopted two beautiful children, and were able to have a biological son. She still had the hurt left over from her late-term miscarriage, but she also acknowledged her happiness.

My cousin after many years of struggling with infertility have begun the process of adopting the most adorable  little girl. Its so obvious that all along she was meant to be their daughter, they just had to wait for her. Just hearing that little voice call her "mommy" is enough to make anyone smile.

It's never easy to lose a parent but for my dear Brycee it happened way too early when he was barely a teenager. Mother's Day is always hard for him, having the unconditional from my mom helps in a way. It doesn't make everything all better, but he was still able to smile.

Our pastor said something that day, I can't remember what is was exactly... But he was talking about people for whom Mother's Day holds pain. Maybe they feel ripped off for one of the reasons I've listed above, or they had a mother who was never a very good, or any other reason. & he said something to effect of  "We are blessed with a mother who cared enough to carry us and keep us safe for 9 month. Whatever role that woman plays in your life now, you can at the very least celebrate that fact."

I don't know I felt like I shouldn't be happy at all that have, or why I just kept thinking I didn't deserve my son or my mother. But as the day went on my view changed and I realized the Lord wants me to rejoice in His blessings. He wants me to express joy and gratitude for all that he has given me, whether I deserve it or not doesn't matter. He gave me my son, and for that I am eternally grateful.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Strong Enough

Strong Enough-Matthew West

You must
You must think I'm strong
To give me what I'm going through

Well, forgive me
Forgive me if I'm wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own

I know I'm not strong enough to be
everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not stong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
For the both of us

Well, maybe
Maybe that's the point
To reach the point of giving up

Cause when I'm finally
Finally at rock bottom
Well, that's when I start looking up
And reaching out

I know I'm not strong enough to be
Everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not stong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

Cause I'm broken
Down to nothing
But I'm still holding on to the one thing
You are God
and you are strong
When I am weak

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don't have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don't have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

Oh, yeah

I know I'm not strong enough to be
Everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not stong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough